Day 1

And then just like that, her head was calm.

The past stopped haunting her, the memories of people long gone, left.

And then just like that, she was home.

50k May

So, this month – exercise!

I have been walking a little more, done a very occasional jog and even tried my hand at some basketball… After 2 hours of trying to dribble and shoot hoops – we were done! Time flies when you’re having fun but I can assure you, time definitely does not fly the following day when everything hurts and you can barely walk!

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Surprisingly, I Did

My goal for April was to read more regularly and surprisingly, I did it.

A little bit of this and that – mostly things for University assignments. An article, a journal, a page or two of a book.

During these uncertain times where motivation is severely lacking, I am surprised to find that I did actually still achieve the goal I had set out to do – without any intention.

What else is 2020 going to surprise me with?

Vitamins

January was a month of medications. I decided to stick with vitamins C and D and won spectacularly!

I had days where life took over and a vitamin C was missed – however almost every single day of January saw me taking the time to grab some vitamins. And I felt so much better for it.

On an odd occasion where I felt the sniffles approaching – nothing developed. I feel healthier and I feel as though my immunity is slowly improving.

Off to an amazing start this year – 2020 is the year I start taking notice and positively impacting upon it. This year I shall not ignore anything to do with my health and I shall work to ensure that I make the effort required.

The Fear

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These pills, when first prescribed, terrified me.

I have to take these, it is within my own best interests, for my physical health. The mentality I had when on anti-depressants of ‘it doesn’t matter’ does not work here.

My mentality was forced into, ‘it doesn’t matter how, it just matters that you do’. So, I hid them in food and tried to trick myself into believing I wasn’t taking medication – it was just a chocolate treat.

6 weeks of these pills and I have an empty pill box. I succeeded in something that I have never succeeded in before. I have never finished a course of medication and I have never taken pills regularly enough to get into the habit of it.

Celebrate all the victories, especially the big ones that appear small to others.

Now onto the next 2 boxes.

I Believe in You

The odds are stacked and you
You can’t relax ’cause you’re
Thinking your dreams will never show up
I see you try for a
A brighter sky, oh but
It looks too high and hot to hold up
Oh, but you don’t see what I see
I believe in you
If you’re lost in the darkness, I’ll be your light
I believe in you
All this work and your curtains are sure to rise
There are so many little things that you, that you don’t see
So I’m, I’m gonna shout it till you listen to me
I believe in you
I believe in you
I know my words, they don’t
Don’t help the hurt
So come on over here and let me show ya
You got this weight on it
You and me made a promise
There’ll come a day you’ll finally know it
Oh, and you’ll see all that I see
I believe in you
If you’re lost in the darkness, I’ll be your light
I believe in you
All this work and your curtains are sure to rise
There are so many little things that you, that you don’t see
So I’m, I’m gonna shout it till you listen to me
I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in you
You’re on your way, yeah you’re
You’re on your way, yeah you’re
You’re on your way, yeah you’re
You’re on your way, yeah you’re
You’re on your way, yeah you’re
You’re on your way, yeah you’re
You’re on your way, way, way, way
I believe in you
If you’re lost in the darkness, I’ll be your light
I believe in you
If you’re lost in the darkness, I’ll be your light
I believe in you
All this work and your curtains are sure to rise
There are so many little things that you, that you don’t see
So I’m, I’m gonna shout it till you listen to me
I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in you
I believe in you
Source: LyricFind
Songwriters: Rebekah Powell / Jessica Jane Rebecca Sharman / Lizzy Ward Thomas / Catherine Emily Ward-Thomas
I Believe in You lyrics © Universal Music Publishing Group, BMG Rights Management, Kobalt Music Publishing Ltd., Spirit Music Group, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC

My Thing

December was a month of feeling like I needed to find my own thing.

The previous month had been one that had seen me trying something I had been thinking of doing for quite some time, based off the positive enforcement of several people around me.

December was a month of thought, of honesty, of finding something that felt like me.

I found Yoga.

I did the Yoga.

I enjoyed the Yoga.

I found a thing that could potentially become one of ‘my things’.

This is definitely a thing to take with me into 2020, something to enjoy and to take seriously.

December was a month that ended positively.

A positive end to my trial run of trying to make changes to my life.

 

May 2020 be a year of radiant success!

A Little Something New

In 2018, I moved to the City. It was an exciting adventure and I made a point of looking at some activities I might be able to do while living here. Things that had often crossed my mind but were unattainable while living in the village I was raised.

Some things were an exciting thought, put off until later because of being in an unknown area and some were done, accomplished with delight.

Pole dancing – a way to keep fit while having fun… Last year, I had not known the area, it was too far away, it was something to keep in mind for a later time.

A LATER TIME

I tried something new, I socialised and became aware of where the location of the pole dancers were. I went, I tried, I left.

6 fundamental pole dancing lessons signed up for – 3 lessons achieved. While the first lesson had been fun, something different. The following 2 lessons were less so. I did not enjoy them as much as my initial lesson, this was not for me.

But I tried.

November was a month of trying.