Pandemic Annoyances

In my life, there have been times where I have had restrictions. Times where I have not left the house for long periods of time. Times where I have been isolated.

This has given me a slight advantage when dealing with this pandemic. It has meant that my anxiety stayed low, I was not ‘freaking out’ and I was able to take it all in my stride.

However…

Now, I am fed up and annoyed. I can be a little bit of a control freak – this means that I am starting to twitch at the fact that we are potentially once again having choice taken away. I live in a City where the number of cases are currently (apparently) increasing. This means that the City is now on some naughty list to be watched and potentially sent into another lockdown. There has been mention of Marshal presence. There has been a limitation on how many people you can and cannot see and where you can see them. Unless you’re at work or school…

Everyone is saying “Christmas may be cancelled.”

Travel restrictions may be put into place. Again. So now I can be once again separated from my mum until the government says otherwise? Or can I see her because there’s only me, my partner and her? Or can I only travel when it’s essential? What is essential? And who says what is essential travel for me?

Families are only able to come together for Christmas if there are 6 or less people present… Well, what about those of us that don’t have enough family to be able to count past 2? Are we allowed to travel to see our family?

Making people give their details when they go out publicly to socialise so track and trace can be completed… Yes, okay… but why now? Why not enforce that one right from the start?

We also might be given a 10pm curfew – who and how is that about to be enforced? What about people who work the late shift or do nights? Do they need to carry their work rota with them as proof they’ve been to or are going to work? Because anyone can carry a badge – I have a badge. I could carry that with me and claim that I’m doing a late shift… who is to know if I actually am doing a late shift or if I’m off to meet my 20 pals?

Eat out to help out was encouraging everyone to go back out and meet in groups to help put money back into the economy and now that we’ve done that, we’re being told to go stay indoors. We do as we’re told and then get told we’re causing the virus to surge again.

If you socialise in a group of more than 6 people, you’re breaking the law (from 14th September) and will be fined. But not if you’re at work or in education. Can we not catch it at work or school?

The Voice (anxiety) In My Head

WRITNG PROMPT:

Screenshot 2020-04-13 at 20.38.45Curiosity and the need to write brought me here – to have a go at something I haven’t ever tried before.

“This is risky and I don’t want to do it, you know this but yet here we are despite it.” (20)

“You need to chill out a bit, what do you think is going to happen to us now?!” (19)

“There are so many possibilities right now of what could go awry and we would have no control!” (18)

“…’Of what could go awry’, she says – ‘what could‘, but how about what could actually go right?” (17)

“Don’t mock me, it isn’t appreciated at all and don’t you think I already know that!” (16)

“Open your eyes, live a little, take some risks, lose some of your shitty control.” (15)

“No thank you, I’d rather not – you know rules are there for good reason.” (14)

“Rules are meant to be broken or at the very least, slightly bent!” (13)

“I disagree, rules are there to protect and they keep us safe.” (12)

“You can’t do this forever, you know that don’t you, Chloe?” (11)

“I know myself, I know my limits and my strengths!” (10)

“Then why argue – shouldn’t you be unflappable by now?” (9)

“I am unflappable, I just have personal respect!” (8)

“Oh, is that what this is, Chloe?” (7)

“What else would it possibly be?” (6)

“Some may call it fear…” (5)

“I am not scared!” (4)

“Yes, you are.” (3)

“So what?” (2)

“Exactly!” (1)